Focused or Fatigued?

Hey Love Bugs!

I LOVE that I can vote and do so religiously. But those “Satan-awful” (I’ve decided that this sounds better than the common phrase “God awful”. My God has nothing awful about Him) campaign ads that they constantly shove in our faces irritates my soul. And they’re here to stay. There’s a runoff in the state of Georgia between Senator Raphael Warnock and the poster boy for CTE, Herschel Walker who was only picked by the GOP because he’s dumber than a 10 pound sack of sugar. He’ll fall right in line with the agenda and be their pet to command. As it stands, Democrats keep the Senate and Republicans control the House.

I’d rather deal with those drug dealer pushin’…er, prescription drug commercials than campaign ads any day. At least I get an amused laugh/snort with the long list of side effects being read Busta Rhymes style as the actors are all smiling while skipping through tulips and shit.😂

Anyhoo, this blog is not about the election or politics. At this point, it is what it is…. 

What I want to talk about is being intentionally focused on yourself. By that I mean focusing on how you move through life, how you speak to yourself and others. Focusing on your surroundings which include the people in your life, who and what you allow to influence you, and what you surround yourself with when you’ve hit a valley. Focus takes practice because distractions are all around us. If we’re not careful, we’ll get sucked into a rabbit hole of bullshit.

I’ve moved through it seems much of my life with what I can only describe as having a veil over my eyes. I’m learning to focus on how I move and speak every day. It’s not easy at times when auto-pilot mode feels comfortable. But comfortable is sinister. Comfortable keeps you from being the best version of yourself whether personally or professionally. Lately, I’ve been pushing myself to step out of my comfort zone. It’s a shedding of my old self and it’s painful at times. But, like my ancestors I refuse to give up. I’m worth it, and my children are worth it. 

I am stretching myself notch by notch every single day. I have to admit it’s been rough, and I have to fight for my sanity each day. Which is why I make sure I stay on top of my selfcare routine. The more I challenge myself, the more I take time for myself. Personally, that’s the only way I can manage it all. 

Recently, I had a few weeks where I was mentally on red. Like I was in a downward spiral of worry, stress, and anxiety. I had to have a series of meetings with myself to figure out what was the trigger. Once I got to the root cause for my chaotic mood, I was able to address it and take the necessary steps to move forward in a better state of mind. With Daylight Savings Time throwing me off center with it getting pitch black at 5ishpm EST now, I was also scrolling through social media way too much, not spending the time I should in meditation/prayer, and ingesting more than my fill of the political shit show. 

Although I absolutely love the holidays, I’ve been a little stressed because 2022 is the complete opposite of 2021.😩

Thanksgiving is next week and lately it’s been a struggle to be thankful, which makes me feel guilty because I have so much to be thankful for. You know anything about that? 

So, with that, I knew the first step was to disconnect from everything so I could get back on track. I surrounded myself with all things positive; thoughts, environment, reading, visual programs, etc. I had to get back to praying, meditating, and exercising regularly. Just a few tricks I have in my mental meltdown bag I use when life happens. I’m still emotionally wobbly at times, and I have to vent out my angry feelings to someone I can trust so that it doesn’t fester in my heart. After all that I’ve endured, I’m still as compassionate and loving as ever….with boundaries now in place of course. Spiritual journey and self discovery ain’t for the weak.

Thanksgiving is next Thursday and I plan to let the chaos of life go and enjoy being with family and friends. I will focus on what I am thankful for and just be in the moment. I was blessed to hear my life long sister-friend’s mother preach this past Sunday and her sermon was centered on 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18. It was just the reminder I needed. I would have missed it if I wasn’t being intentional with my focus.

What are some of things you do to get back on track when your mind and emotions go on a bender? 

Be good to yourselves my loves.

Happy Day of Thanks!

Shell 

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